Doubt
Why is it that You’ve
not yet come to ease my troubled mind?
I’ve always found
my peace in You, until today I find
That all the daily troubles
of this life, they do ensnare me
Or is it just a simple
way of telling me to seek Thee?
I know that in the coming
weeks these troubles will subside
And once again the one
true peace within Thee I will find
But why today of all
days hence to show me this small sign
And lay these toils
and troubles upon an already shaken mind
Yet I find today is
every day, one no man can evade
So once again drowning
in Your arms, I watch my troubles fade
For You are always big
enough, my burdens to carry
But bear me down upon
my knees they do, whilst I tarry
So come and take them
from my shoulders and to Your arms I’ll run
For always in my heart
I’ll know that when this day is done
I am forgiven and set
free from all that once did bind me
And it was Your love
upon the cross that day that set me free
Now once again my mind at ease, peace overtakes my soul
And all the worry that once was succumbs to joy tenfold
When within my heart I find Thee seated on the throne
My troubles disappear because my life is Yours alone.
Proposal
I don’t know where we’ll be
Ten years down the road, it’s true
I just know this one thing
That I’m falling in love with you.
I have no say in the master plan
The Father’s will be done
And I’ll cling to the hope that in the end
We two will become one.
The love we share is wonderful
I couldn’t ask for more.
For on this earth you’re the only one
Whom truly I adore.
Each breath you take completes my own.
My heartbeat echoes yours.
Our eyes together find the way
To otherwise unseen doors.
The keys to which are hidden
Ever in each other’s hearts.
Until the day we realize
That we can do nothing apart.
Together however we’ll find the truth
That we can retrieve these keys
By giving to each other of ourselves
The problem is solved with ease.
For each of us holds part of the key
But alone they are incomplete
So try as we might, the door’s still sealed
By ties that won’t retreat.
This door is not impenetrable
The lock may be undone
For the key is complete when we are united
Two souls becoming one.
You see, my love, the door we’ve found
Is union in itself.
And when the bond is forged we’ll see
That everything we’ve felt.
Has led us up to this one door
This one decision true.
And I for one would like to spend
The rest of my life with you.
Provider
He never ceases to amaze
With the little things He does.
He’s made me a happier man today
Than the person I once was.
My joy can be found in simple faith
That He makes my paths straight;
In all the “happy coincidence”
That others attribute to fate.
I know His hand is in my life.
I’ve seen it so many times.
The way He takes care of my every need
Is nothing but divine.
I no longer have a doubt in my mind
That He decides my path
But I know He wants what’s best for me
Even though I deserve His wrath.
It’s all the little miracles
That prove He has a plan
To change the wicked boy I was
Into a faithful man.
Standing on the promises
Taken from His Word
I look ahead to all the things
His love for me affords.
Chief among them happiness
No matter what that means
He knows my heart, my wants and needs
And what is best for me.
So I will simply place my trust
In Him whose will is best
Watching and listening for signs from Him
Until, at last, I rest.
Nonconformist
I never imagined I’d fall for a blonde.
It seemed a preposterous notion.
Never in a million years
Would I find one with such devotion.
But now that I’ve met her, it seems only right
That she’d find a place in my heart.
I’d brandished them all as Hollywood types
Til she tore that idea apart.
She’s so down to earth
Radiating humility
Filling my life
With peace and tranquility.
The mere thought of her
Is all that it takes.
Self-consciousness dies
And the world’s burden breaks.
For she is my armor
‘Gainst life’s slings and arrows.
I know she’ll support me
Wherever the wind blows.
She’s nothing like the snob I envisioned
Who’d turn up her nose at the sight
Of a man such as I, as plain as I am
Unwilling to put up a fight.
Blondes were all actresses, singers, and stars.
What I wanted was so much purer.
Just someone who’d love me for all that I am
With a passion that always endured.
So you can imagine my surprise
When this woman was put in my life.
I’d sworn I wouldn’t be like every one else
So the fact that I am cuts deep like a knife.
Rest assured there was shock and chagrin
But the sting was not so brutal
As to dull the joy I’d found with her
In the end, my persistence was futile.
My pride fell down when I realized
That my reservations were crude.
Resisting her just cuz I said I would
Simply made me feel rude.
Now that my foolish arrogance
Is out of the picture for good.
I’ll get back to letting her make me happy
Just like I knew she would.
Endeavor
The union of souls
Witnessed by man
Sanctified by God
This is marriage
A contemporary joke
Not worth its weight in lint
Severed at a whim
This is marriage
Two becoming one
Spirits joined in love
Halves becoming whole
This is marriage
A joint account
A trophy wife
A breadwinner
This is marriage
An oath to stay true
A covenant of hearts
A promise to endure
This is marriage
Until I’m bored
There’s someone else
It wasn’t real
This is marriage
My helpmate
My lover
My best friend
This is marriage
The ball and chain
The man who beats me
The best I could do
This is marriage
What is marriage?
Love
What is marriage?
Completion
What is marriage?
Devotion
What is marriage?
Commitment
This is marriage
Angel
The summer breeze
Is no compare
Except for the way
It plays with her hair
Her starlit eyes
As they gaze into mine
Allow me a window
To her soul as it shines
Those strong quiet eyes
Pierce my own
And peer into my heart
Where thoughts of us roam
A brilliant smile
On her lips plays
And joy exponential
Fills our days
Simple togetherness
Is all we need
Never exceeding
The warnings we heed
Letting desires
Meant to be resting
Still remain dormant
Without our protesting
Content just to stay
In each other’s presence
And wait til the day
That we join our essence
Then we shall be
One person from two
Truly united
Til the day we meet You
Awakening
My eyelids couldn’t save me from the penetrating light
I clenched them tight against the lamp that burned so very bright
Unwilling as I was to look upon a One so true
No pair of shades could keep me from salvation found in You
The world that seeks to silence me and all my newfound peace
Has no authority over me nor power in the least
For I have gained a strength profound and faith that lets me stand
Firmly in the promise that You guide me with Your Hand
Protection it is mine against the evils of this world
When slings and arrows from the vile mouths of men are hurled
I’m armored in salvation and my sword is truth and love
Weapons more effective that can help me rise above
I know when life is finished and my time has come to pass
My faith and trust are placed in true securities that last
This life is but a raindrop in the ocean that is time
But I trust that change will come from the ripples left behind
To Infinity and Beyond
So obsessed with progress has our culture come to be.
The lengths we go to to attain such things daily sicken me.
Cutthroat, lowdown, in the mud and proud of it to boot
Satan shows up in our midst wearing a tie and suit
Demons making strongholds in the core of capitalist minds
Throughout corporate industry the vile serpent winds
Crowding out the light of day with shades of compromise
Moral integrity sacrificed so capitol can rise
Facing down the evils that I come across each day
I have a Guide, the One Who is a Lamp unto my way
He penetrates the shadows and illuminates the path
Sparing me from trails that lead to His judgment and wrath
Temptation rears its ugly head in all I see and hear
Even through my closest friends and those I hold so dear
But the love He has for me prevents such loss and woe
That throws itself upon me more than I have ever known
All in the name of moving on to bigger and better things
Our people have lost the love and joy brought down on angels’ wings
The struggle handed down to me and brothers and sisters of mine
Is nothing more than to live Your love and through us let it shine
Faith and trust is ours to shield us from our selfish ways
To raise us up and carry us throughout these evil days
Progress doesn’t hold a candle to what we have in store
An eternity to worship You whom truly we adore
Grampa
Who
is this man in pictures old
I know him, but I don’t
He doesn’t look familiar
He should
Memories should come flooding back
But they don’t
I am a man without a past
It has been taken
Is it dreaded disease or something worse?
I know not
But I still don’t recognize the man in the picture
I sit and stare
I know who it is
But only because I’ve been told
Had the picture been in a frame
Among others at an antique store perhaps
I would think it no different or more special
Even though it showcases one I love
The man in the picture is my grandfather
A man I barely knew
A man who loved me more than I can know
A man that I can’t share stories with
A man who can’t ask why at twenty one I don’t
yet have a partner
A man who can only look at me
God knows what’s going on in his mind
But I don’t
As he sits in his wheelchair
And his wife strokes his hair
I become jaded to his pain
I sit and write and the tears flow freely at my shame
